Redha's Journal

      I, sometimes I feel like I'm in a rut but in actuality, I'm not but I feel like it. Maybe it's the routine. Maybe it's the day in day out things. Maybe there's nothing new in my life. It's just the same old thing. No risk, no danger, just plain same everyday. I don't know. Maybe I think about this too much. I don't know. Maybe I'm just waiting everyweek for the weekends. Like everybody's waiting for the weekend but I feel like I live through the weekdays just for the weekends. I don't know what I'm babbling about. Maybe you understand me, maybe you don't. Maybe you're feeling what I'm feeling, maybe you don't. Maybe I'm lost and I need to find the feeling again. What feeling? I don't know. Just in a rut. Need to break out of this rut. That's all.

      Before this... way back in 2017 to 2018 or 2019, I made lots of video gaming videos. Let's Play we call them. Play bunch of games and record them. Then, edit them, add some style to them. Render them and post them on Youtube. My channel went through a lot of name changing from Red1917 Gaming to Mr. Soapy to now which is called SmirkGuy. After that, I started working as an intern in my previous company. So I haven't got much time to do Let's Plays anymore. Nowadays, I think I can start back my Youtube channel routine but the thing is that before this, I've been playing games for content. Some games I play for leisure or for fun. You know, just me playing games. For Youtube, I did some contents like PUBG or Subnautica (my favourite ones) or even Dota 2. Now a lot of games that I played lean more towards like Yakuza or Fallout 76 or even like Frostpunk. Which in my opinion, nobody's gonna watch that type of video games. So I stopped completely making videos. Some

     So! Yesterday (as of writing this blog), me and my wife bought a TV! Which is huge for me because before this we've just been watching stuff through a projector that I bought when we were staying at the old house (The Laurels). It's because we had a huge room and with a big blank empty white walls that we could just shoot the projector on and watched movies, Netflix and what not. Now we're staying at the small apartment where that wall is kind of facing the window and we could only turn on the projector when it's sundown. At the moment, it is long days in Ireland as they say. So we could only turn on the projector around 10pm or so. That's why we decided that it's time to buy a TV and we bought one, yesterday.     Before buying the TV, we kind of rearrange the furnitures around to make our house look bigger and it kind of did. I'm happy with the current re-arrangement. Looks big and spacious now. My wife decided to buy curtains to hang up at the place w

      Hello. How're things? I'm back. I'm back in blogging and I'm back in Ireland. Took a few weeks off going back to home country, the land of the free, the place where 40 degrees temperature is the normal temperature, Malaysia! I went back home to see my family and celebrate Eid as well. Everything's fine, my family are fine both, my family and my in laws. It was the most busiet weeks in that time. Went back home and straight to clean my house, preparing for Eid. Bought some stuff for my bedroom that we left a year and half ago. Cleaning up my room. Fixing stuff. Celebrating Eid in Malaysia is different from here. The feeling is different. Also, that was the first time I've celebrated Eid Fitr with my in laws, same goes to my wife.     Ramadhan. Let me tell you the differences between Ramadhan in Malaysia and in Ireland. I tell you my routine but during the weekends or holidays, not working days. In Ireland, my routine is that wake up 5am in the morning (4am