Acknowledge

  For the time being, I am an asshole to myself. I need to get some rest. I need to know my own potentials in doing job. First of all, this post is for me to read in the future. Dear future me, know that you have tortured your past self by making him mentally breakdown in the middle of life. You forced yourself to say yes to anything people say or ask you to do. Don't do that cause when you not meeting your expectation then you punished yourself for that. Don't. If you can't do it, simply say no. Okay? Good. There's no harm in rejecting. It's not a crime to reject, it's a crime to torture thyself. Next semester just does small stuff. No need to go big. Capiche? Good. Now you must acknowledge your potentials. Know how much you can bounce.

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