My body is going through a tough time but my mind is stable. (for now). This post is being directed to my journey from being a student with a lot of free time and less money to an intern with less free time and more money. (much more than my student's life). Everybody asked me if that I'm okay with my job, I would say I'm great. I'm happy with my job. Yes I like what I'm doing but I hate that I have less free time. I filled my free time being extrovert by being around people. It's a shit show when I have to pretend to be something that I'm not. I like solitary. I like my loneliness sometimes. I felt recharged. But now, I'm a caffeine addict extrovert pretending man. Every Monday and Wednesday, I went on playing badminton with my colleagues and friends. Every Tuesday and Friday, I usually burnt out by my energy loss during badminton or crunching my energy during work time, thus, I went home and sleep. I like having routines, just not this one. Need to rework with my life. Need to find time to play games back. Need to make a schedule. Yeah, I need to make a schedule. Maybe I'll do that. Chiow.
Assalamualaikum. Good morning. " What do you mean? Do you wish me a good morning, or mean that it is a good morning whether I want it or not; or that you feel good this morning; or that it is a morning to be good on? " - Gandalf from the The Hobbit I am not well. Not physically but mentally. I feel like gonna jump out of my skin. I feel the loneliness. Oh yes, I am right now single. Just broken up with a girl that I thought I could commit but I can't. She just not for me. Her ways are not for me. Actually before that I've broken up with the perfect girl that I've been together since form 2. Last year, I felt the love wasn't sparked anymore. I felt like the fire burnt out. What is wrong with me? I dropped a dime and I feel miserable because I dropped it. I shot a hole through everything I loved. I burnt my own castle and I feel miserable. Why did I did that? Allah has mysterious ways of showing me the light. I still...
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