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What's Next

    Hello. This post. This is the post that I'm going to share to you something about me. Something that is considered to my friends that defines me. Something that some of my friend took/take on as a challenge or as a guidance. It's something that I never know I had and it was pointed out by one of my dearest friend, Hafidz (Pak Din).

    I am what people call a risk taker, sometimes. I hate being in a rut. I hate constant feeling of just there, not moving anywhere. I'm always think of what's next. For an example, when I was 22 years of age (2019), nearly finished my degree, I think to myself, "Okay after getting my bachelor's degree, what's next?" Got a internship at Silterra. Nearly finished my internship, "What's next?" Got a permanent job, same place. "Okay then, what's next?" Got married. After that, supposedly, the plan was to furnished my rental house and make it liveable. Then, buy a house somewhere in Kulim or my hometown, Sungai Petani but other stuff came (Ireland) and we decided to move here.

    "Okay, moved to Ireland, what's next?", rent a proper house. Renting a proper house now. Now my what's next plan is dead. I have nothing else on my mind except making a baby or buy a car. Right now I'm living in a rut. Fockin' groundhog day. Go to work, go back home, do some activity, go to bed. Day in and day out. The making a baby plan is not achieveable yet because first, we lived in a rental house with another couple (my friends) and also because me and my wife is not financially able enough to do so. Buying a car, currently in the meantime, we either use public transportations or cycle to work. So for now I don't have a what's next plan. I need that plan for now. I need the what's next feeling. All I can think about right now is go home (because I'm at work) and spend the rest of my days by watching The Walking Dead or play games. That's all. Need to sort this out. I'll have a discussion with my wife later. Maybe she has a plan. She always does.

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