Redha's Journal

Hey.      My name is Red and today I'm going to tell you a story about my current life. I'm working right now. As you can see that's why I'm unable to write in this blog for a long time due to my career right now. It's been a hell of a time during work and off work. Trying to find the time to write.      When I go home, I play video games. PC games as to be precised. I sold my Switch in 2018 or 2019, can't remember. Bought the Switch solely for Zelda Breath of the Wild and Super Mario Odyssey. Okay enough diversion. From 8am to 5pm, I work in a semiconductor company called, Silterra Malaysia Sdn. Bhd. For past few months, I worked as an intern with engineer's job which was awesome to say. It was a blast learning while working but it was tiring as I have to learn my work twice as fast as a normal intern should do. I've been working on several projects that are stupidly hard and are not supposed to be given to an intern. But yeah, I have to manage somehow....

     My body is going through a tough time but my mind is stable. (for now). This post is being directed to my journey from being a student with a lot of free time and less money to an intern with less free time and more money. (much more than my student's life). Everybody asked me if that I'm okay with my job, I would say I'm great. I'm happy with my job. Yes I like what I'm doing but I hate that I have less free time. I filled my free time being extrovert by being around people. It's a shit show when I have to pretend to be something that I'm not. I like solitary. I like my loneliness sometimes. I felt recharged. But now, I'm a caffeine addict extrovert pretending man. Every Monday and Wednesday, I went on playing badminton with my colleagues and friends. Every Tuesday and Friday, I usually burnt out by my energy loss during badminton or crunching my energy during work time, thus, I went home and sleep. I like having routines, just not this one. Need...

     It was September 2016. It was a breezy morning. I was reluctant to go to the registration of my bachelor's degree in university as all my hometown friends are still on their holiday. It was a shitty thing for me to say but I hate my registration university. But something else was on my mind that day as I can meet my college friends back especially Adrian Shahrin. My one true bro throughout my foundation and bachelor's degree. It's been a long time since the last time we met, and it was a blast to see him again. When I was busy register, I looked around and saw lots of new faces. Some of them were going to be my friends and some of them, I never really bothered that much.      After the registration, me and Adrian saw our old room as we had technical training at the university before. It was kind of compulsory for us foundation students to go through the technical training before entering our bachelor's degree. The room was a mess as we left for...

This has to be the most depressing year of my whole degree year. Just that.

     Hello. It's been a long time since I've been writing at this blog for fun. Nobody read this blog by the way. It was just me writing for myself for future references. How I built up myself for the past years. It's for me to look back at what I have done for me and the community. I've been busy with my Youtube channel for years now. It's been a hard time to keep track on what I'm going to do. I hope that I can improve my timetable in the future. Chow.

     Assalamualikum and good morning. It's been a long time since I've wrote something in this blog. The name of the title is the name of my memory. Ho... That's a little too deep. Okay I'll rephrase it, it is a time of me when I was 14 and 15 years old. The year of me fooling around as kid with my friend Firdaus trying to become a deejay and I mixed all these songs and it firstly turned out to be good. Then as I grew older, it was a funny thing to be proud of when I was younger. I would remix this weird edm genre musics and transfer it to my USB drive. I rode my bike or ran to Firdaus' house and let him listen to it. On regularly Friday, he would come to my house after Jumaat prayer and we would play Slenderman or Amnesia The Dark Descent.

     Just like always, this post is for me in the future. Dear me in the future, where you are right now, how do you do right now is all a matter of time before you'll meet another what so called a disaster. This is some advice for you. You need to prioritize what is a need and what is a want and what to do first. First of all, I am in a state of confusion right now. I am young. I need to swing my life towards the enjoyment a young person should want but I chased for the stars. I chased stuffs only an adult would only want. I don't need that right now. I need to know what I want and what I need. I don't need this, but I want this. Now I know what I have to do but I can't do anything until my heart changes what it wants. I'm an idiot, yeah, I know that. I put myself on the line too much. I put myself as a person who can do stuff others can't. Stupid. Now I'm going to enjoy this single life as a young idiotic boy who will fuck things up really nice and yet sti...